Over the last few months, I have been harboring a secret. A secret that has had my stomach churning, has kept me up late at night, and even haunted my dreams.<\/p>\n
You see, for almost a year, Paul and I have been coming to the conclusion that something we have been doing is no longer working. We needed to find a solution, and the solution meant change, and the change of which I am speaking is a change that neither of us anticipated in our wildest dreams. I mean sure: we said<\/em> <\/strong>we would consider all options, that everything<\/em> <\/strong>was on the table when it came to making the right choice for our family, but that was all but a rhetorical flourish, a nodding of the head to the idea that God, in His sovereignty, can work through absolutely any means to accomplish his will in our lives. In truth, I considered this the nuclear option. The absolute, bottom line last resort.<\/p>\n Yet here I sit today, in stunned disbelief, my head swirling with every possible and impossible scenario as I peer with trepidation\u00a0down the vast pipeline of potential\u00a0futures. Because today, we did it. We pushed the nuclear button.<\/p>\n Today, our oldest son Jacob registered as a student at Independence High School in Glendale.<\/p>\n This home-schooling family of almost 18 years is sending one of their kids to public school!!!<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n ~*~*~*~*~<\/p>\n Well, as I said, this has been coming for quite a while. Over the years, we have worked with so many different styles of curriculum, everything from workbooks (the Alpha Omega Publications Lifepac<\/em> series<\/span><\/a><\/span> <\/strong>worked well when our children were smaller, but less well as they grew older and we became Catholic) to online school (back in the early days of K-12<\/a><\/span><\/strong>)\u00a0to classical homeschooling (a-la Susan Wise Bauer’s The Well Trained Mind<\/a><\/em><\/span><\/span><\/strong>), to, most recently, creating our own curriculum and supplementing with\u00a0the excellent Angelicum Academy Great Books<\/a><\/span><\/span><\/strong> courses.<\/p>\n All these changes were my attempt at evolving with my children’s learning capabilities and styles, as well as accommodating my own strengths and weaknesses. Our methods have seemed to work fairly well for the three girls, who all graduated\u00a0from my home-school to attending college at 16-17, and have acclimated well to the academic and social challenges there.<\/p>\n But Jacob, on the other hand… well he’s always been his own man, as it were. Long before we had him tested at the age of 10, we knew he was unique, and recently, in having him re-evaluated, the results were nearly identical to his first tests: The\u00a0gifts and challenges of this extraordinary young man cover the whole spectrum from borderline to genius. And with that objective analysis to reinforce my own very colored perspective as a dual-role mom and teacher, I recognized that I am no longer enough. I have done everything I can, and now, to help him reach his full potential, we need to bring a new team on board.<\/p>\n The only question that remained at that point was how to build that team, and we were very fortunate (could God have anything<\/em> <\/strong>to do with it, I wonder?) to have the beginnings of that team already in place when we sat down to go over the tests with the school district psychologist and some other members of the faculty of Independence High School. At every point along the way I felt confident in their very clear understanding of twice exceptional students, and was surprised to find that I could, with relief, rather than regret, acknowledge their superior expertise.<\/p>\n ~*~*~*~*~<\/p>\n Well, that’s the sixty-four-million-dollar-question, now isn’t it? If I allow myself, I can set my head a-spinning for the next week upon the imponderables with which the future may be fraught. \u00a0And so\u00a0I am prone, believe you me!<\/em>\u00a0Yet, that’s exactly when I must “turn my eyes upon Jesus”, as the old song goes. How else does anyone grapple with what may happen tomorrow?<\/p>\n Certainly, it’s a whole new world for my son, and it’s a whole new role in life for me. But it’s quite possibly the beginning of a fantastic chapter in his life that will lead to opportunities I could never foresee.\u00a0I pray that it is a chapter in which he will be strengthened in his Catholic faith, which is already strong. I pray it is a chapter that will prepare him for fulfilling God’s plan for his life, whatever that vocation may be! I pray that his eyes will be opened to all the ways that he can serve Christ through serving others;\u00a0that he will grow in compassion and maturity, as well as in acquisition of the knowledge and skills needed to live in this daunting, challenging, exciting world.\u00a0What I know for sure, is that I can trust my son to his Heavenly Father’s care, whether he is in my house or on a campus with 2,000 other students.<\/p>\n This is indeed a changing of the guard,\u00a0as I am being relieved of duty by a new batch of sentries. But make no mistake, no one on this planet is better equipped to be my son’s number-one prayer warrior. That’s one job\u00a0that no one can wrest from my grasp.<\/p>\n ~*~*~*~*~<\/p>\n Jacob, with his first bit of Independence Patriots swag… and many silly faces. I love my boy.<\/p>\nHow did it come to this?\u00a0<\/strong><\/h4>\n
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